It's time to sit still and listen. I watched the Jamie Foxx special today - "What Had Happened Was" on Netflix. I have mixed emotions about it. It had funny parts, but it also made me feel sad. I saw a man trying to make sense of what had happened to him and trying to move forward. A man grasping onto a faith that he has forgotten about or thinks God is trying to get his attention by allowing something bad to happen to him. That is the general thought of Christian people when we feel that we have gotten out of line. And God can only bring us back by pulling the plug on us. That is our prevalent thought process.
I find myself there today, too. Back in 2020, I was laid off from my job. I felt embarrassed and reeled with anger. I thought I would never allow this to happen to me again. Yet, here I am again with this same company, and again, my job has been eliminated and moved to a new region under a different manager. At first glance, this seemed like a slap on the face! But it is not. It is a blessing in disguise. I wanted this to happen. I needed a break. I have been wandering around and drowning in this position and company for years. God had to remove me from this situation because I asked him to. I did not want a new job with another company. I wanted a chance to go after the different things I wanted to do. Like writing, blogging, being a print model, casting for plays, and acting. I was and am afraid to follow that path because it seems like a fantasy I'm chasing instead of looking for other avenues to help the world. How will this bring in revenue? What if I fail? What if no one reads my material or calls me for an audition or a go-see?
As I step into the unknown, I believe that faith is more powerful than fear. I don't know what will happen within the next few months, but I trust that if I give God a chance, He will make it happen. I am reading a book called Power Moves by Sarah Jakes Roberts, and there are some statements she asks people to choose from and marinate on. I chose: I believe that faith is more powerful than fear.
I have allowed fear to stop me from moving forward. But today, I stand up to it. I choose courage over fear. Today, I say no more.
Scripture "Hebrews 13 5-6".
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